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Saturday, 26 May 2012

  • In a world where distractions are aplenty... I am still finding it hard to distract myself.  

    Feeling restless and jumpy... not sure if it is because of a lack of caffeine, lack of sugar or just the overwhelming thoughts warring in my head. 

    Sleep eludes me, and yet that seems to be the only solution for now. 

    Oh night time, how I love and loathe you at the same time. 

    Sigh. 

Monday, 21 May 2012

  • Good mentors are hard to find, which is why I am so grateful for those I have in my life. 

    There are those whom I see on a daily basis whose words, decisions, thought-processes are laid open for me to observe, learn and absorb and which in turn shapes the way I think and speak and act. 

    There are also those whom I meet not so frequently, but regularly enough - maybe once every two months or so - who help to re-calibrate my spiritual compass, as well as to help me refresh and refuel in areas which may have run dry or thin. 

    There are those who I don't meet at all for long periods, but who keep in touch in their own ways (some regularly, some not) via email or sms or phone calls. These are also deeply treasured and valued because they remember me even when we are apart.

    And then there are those whom I have never met before, who probably don't know I exist, and some of whom may not even be alive anymore. These speak into my life through their written words... be it in books or even blogs. 

    Too often we sit around and complain that good mentors are hard to find and stop at just that.
    But they are not always that hard to find, especially if you know how and where to look. 

Monday, 14 May 2012

  • The true test of a person's character is when they are put through difficult and challenging circumstances. 

    Whether we throw tantrums, sulk, blame others, complain, whinge, wallow in self-pity, or do nothing and wait it out, or take control, or crumble and cry... that is when we know what we are really made of. 

    I do all of the above, some more, some less, I won't say which. Heh. 

    But I stand in awe of those who are in such total control of themselves even in the worst of situations. They remain calm and they remain strong. Even in their tears there is strength and peace. I wonder if I would ever reach a state such maturity and grace.

Friday, 11 May 2012

  • Apart from some really unpleasant instances, today turned out far better than expected. 

    This really really really adorable little girl came up to me today, grabbed my hands and kissed it and proceeded to give me a big squeeze! Then she took a step back, looked up at me and stretched both arms out and said, "Aunty... bao bao me!" :) I couldn't carry her though because if I did the other kids would want the same treatment, so I told her to wait til after class, and explained to her why. She understood and then excitedly said "Later you remember to bao bao me ok! Then you turn me round and round and round then you throw me wheeeeeee!!! ok? Then I will fly far far like Superman!" pleased So cute! Love her to bits!

    Then when I was about the leave the room, this really really smart little boy rushes to the door and blocks me, saying I had to stay. I said I really needed to go, and he told me I could, if I would say "beep beep". I did and I was released hehe.. so cute! The same boy sang to me (and all the other mentors) a really sweet song after class too... "Why do stars fall down from the sky, everytime you walk by... just like me, they long to be, close to you!" Awwww.... 

    Thank God for kids heart

Tuesday, 08 May 2012

  • I wish I had more hours in a day to do all the things I need to do. And the things I want to do. And the things I hope to do. 

    I am turning again into that human-doing which I so loathe but what to do... the situation calls for it and I am desperately hoping that the situation will be over soon. Can hardly remember what I wore to work by the time my head hits the pillow at night... how to even remember what happened last week? I find myself opening documents to work on, then remembering another task I need to complete and just as I start on that, I recall another task and by the time I get started on that third task, someone is either calling me on the phone to ask about something else or someone is standing by my desk asking for help about something or other. I finally understand the term "scatter-brained". 

    Last week stayed back late to get some work done on a Friday night but just before I could print all my reports, I smelt smoke. We didn't know this then, but the building 2 doors down was on fire. Smoke filled our office though so my colleague and I packed up and rushed down and spent the next half hour or so watching the firemen put the fire out. Apparently it was the same floor we were on that had caught on fire, and it had just reached the roof when we got down. A little drama for the week. At least it made a big enough impression on me to stick.